Friday, December 17, 2004
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
I don't know...
Okay, I didn't think I would lose it...I did. I went over to DJP's apartment so that we could exchange keys and give each other stuff we had borrowed from on another (mainly CD's). Anyway, we talked, we cried. As he sat on his bed all I could think about was just grabbing him and holding him and falling asleep with him in my arms. I will miss that. I asked him not to call until I was ready. I sort of regret that. I know he loves me and I know I still love him, but it's so hard to just forgive someone for such an act.
As I drove home, I lost it. I had the radio up and I just started to scream from the top of my lungs. My eyes started to burn and I knew I had to call someone. I could hardly drive home. I called my sister...and of course she was wonderful. I love her so much. She set me straight once again. I honestly do not know what I would do without her!
DG as also been a source of strength for me. We had a great conversation last night as well. It was nothing in particular, just that type of talk that keeps your mind off of the real world. It was healthy.
Bottom line...I don't know. I know DJP regrets what he did. I know I'm willing to forgive him...I just hope he'll be around.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
All I can say is, WOW
I'm no longer seeing DJP, he committed an act I cannot forgive him for. I broke it off last night and to tell you the truth, I'm not that upset about it. Is that sad? I think maybe because I knew the end was near for us and I sort of started to get myself ready. At any rate, I wish him well.
Off to have lunch with DG and then later...a Christmas party with some friends.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Monday, December 06, 2004
I went home unexpectedly on Thursday because my Tio (Uncle) Albert had a massive stroke. My brother Amador called to give me the news and my initial concern was for my Father because he just lost two bothers last year, 7 months apart. I immediately called my Mother and sister and they both agreed that my Father needed us all there. I packed like a madman and made it down in about 3 hours (average being 3 and half).
When I got there My Tio's condition was a lot worst then I expected. He's in a coma. There is a huge blood clog next to his spine in the back of the neck that is causing all kinds of problems with the flow of blood to his brain. By Saturday, they took him out of the ICU and gave him his own private room since there is nothing else to really do.
Driving in the car with my Father and two of my brothers after visiting him on Saturday, I remembered my friend from high school (LH) was having a Christmas party, which I hadn't planned to attend because of work. I asked my Father if it would be okay. And of course he said yes. And added I shouldn't feel guilty because he would be fine.
With that reassurance, I called JD (another friend from high school that was going) to get directions and to ask for a ride back to my sister's where I was staying.
Anyway, long story short, I'm so glad I went! It was like a mini high school reunion. I saw seven people I graduated with. And not the "oh, its him/her," no, it was the guys and girls I pretty much hung out with! It was so wonderful! I'll post pictures later.
Sunday was also a surprisingly nice day given the reason I was there. My family gathered at my sister's and we all helped her put up her Christmas tree while listen to Christmas music and just basically cutting up. It was something we all need given the last few days. And of course Adam (brother-in-law) ended the gathering with an awesome dinner of steak and potatoes. I love my family!! It was what my Father needed.
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Yes, Grover has an album out!!!! I want it!!! Thanks K for posting that.