Good news, Bad news

Good: I'm going to the first UT game on Saturday and its historic because our beloved Bevo is retiring. It will be the first time that the outgoing and incoming Bevo will be on the same field. I have to find someone to go with. I have a some people in mind. DM or HJ or CB or DJ or SR. Anywho, I'm excited about this fall. My calanders is filling up with a lot of activites, both work-related and social.

Bad: ERG is leaving to NYC (again) on Thrusday. Although he is leaving on a very sour note, I wish all the happiness in the world for that boy.

What a difference a day makes or an evening or a chicken fried steak

Thank you HJ. I love everybody again. Everyone, please call, email, write...something.

I'm all out of answers...

I can't tell you how much I just want to crawl under some fucking rock right now. My friends, my exes, my family...I just want a blank sheet, a new start. A new set. I feel that way right now, but I'm sure tomorrow I will swear I can't live without them. I just want an arms length away at the moment.

Damn...

Marianne Fucking Faithfull

thank you DG...

Here are the photos of Nick I promised

@ Austin Park and Pizza 

Nick and I 

At Ney 

Texas Dreaming...

At Toy Joy 

Here at Austin Park & Pizza 

On bumper boats 

At Ney 

Nick at Austin Park & Pizza 

Nick at Ney Museum 

He's gone...for now

Nicholas is in the air, going home. Last night we had the whole apartment in "tents," that's where you grab all the sheets and blankets you own and make one huge tent. You're suppose to have rooms and halls. It was a blast. We slept in them last night. He cried a lot because he wasn't ready to go back home. When he slept, I cried because of course I didn't want him to leave yet, but his life, his home is truly in Maryland.

This past week and weekend Nick and I have gone shopping for slim, plastic snakes and other toys at Toy Joy. We went to a huge costume shop called Lucy in Disguise with Diamonds. We rented movies. Played checkers and war and just sat around talking about everything from grade school to the Olympics and why America is such an awesome place to live and how we should feel grateful we live here.

I will miss him, but I will fly to see him this fall, then for Christmas, then for his Birthday in January, and then Spring Break-and of course have him again for the summer.

My favorite quote of all times:

When you see a grain of sand,
You see all possible worlds,
With all their vast rivers and mountains.
When you see a drop of water,
You see the nature of all the waters of the
universe.
In thus contemplating the totality of phenomena,
You are contemplating the totality of Mind. --Dogen

I love that. It inspires me. Nick and I are just enjoying a lazy Saturday evening after some running around and basically hanging out. We ventured to Dave and Busters and then to the park. I don't want him to leave.

I know, a list of things /people I want to learn more about:

Che Guevera
Denham Fouts
Monday, November 28, 1966: Manhattan's Plaza Hotel....more later

Just heard Bjork's new one

http://www.opacodex.com/archives/001244.html

Love it!!!

Here's some stuff on her

http://www.bjork.com/unity/

Some Plans and Thoughts

It's Friday and I'm ready for the weekend! Nicholas and I plan to go to the lake and possibly Dave and Busters and Inner Caverns in Georgetown. This past Sunday we went to the Elizabeth Ney Museum and did the scavenger hunt. Everyone commented on how smart Nicholas was for reading everything himself. I was so proud. We both enjoyed it. He got all the answers right and in return received two cookies from Elizabeth Ney's 100 year old recipe. The museum itself is in the Hyde Park area and seems so out of place because it looks like a miniature castle. I'll post pictures later.

I have the date when Nicholas will fly back home...August 16th. He was suppose to stay an extra week, but Tonya realized she needed that week to get him ready for school. I'm not bitter...

Nicholas wants to type something...here he goes:

daddy loves me very much and I'm proud of him.

That is so cute. Not sure what's up with all the spaces...

ERG called me at work this morning and he talked to me like he use to (instead of the short, monotone, don't really want to show emotion voice). It made me smile. More on that whole thing later.

Nicholas and I

From Saturday

It's Saturday evening and Nick is playing with his toys. We got up early to go to Austin Park and Pizza in Pflugerville. It was so much fun. They have practically everything: minature golf, go-karts, bumber-boats, an arcade, rock climbing, and pizza buffet. I highly recommend it! I'll post pictures later. Tomorrow we plan on going swimming at Barton Springs and some sort of treasure hut at the Elizabet Ney Museum. Should be fun!

Just having Nicholas here as been wonderful therapy for me. I'm learning so much from him. Just watching his reaction to the smallest things and finding laughter in the simplest forms reminds me that life isn't all that serious.

I love pointing out things around us that aren't so ordinary so that we can experience them together. Like earlier this week we were in line at the bank and I pointed out a lady ahead of us who had this wonderful full-length hair (it was touching her calves). He really appreciated it and started asking me questions about how long I thought it took her to grow it or how she brushed it all.

I love being apart of his life and just being his father. As we were about to enter his first day at camp I remember him saying in the car, "I'm about to be shy." I knew he meant he was nervous and it's times like these you cherish as a parent because you realize your child is vulnerable and at that moment you do need to step up and be reassuring and loving and use your super-human parenting skills they know you have to make them feel better. It's such an important role. And I cherish it.

Because of my wonderful diversion, I hope I haven't alienated any of my friends its just when Nicholas is here he is my main focus. And because I just started at Texas Exes and haven't accumulated any vacation time I have to put Nicholas in day camp. That sucks. So any off time I have I want it to be with him. Sorry. I hope those who care understand.

He's calling me so we can draw. Gotta go.